"When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in his energy, recognize the scent of his skin. You see only the essence of the person,not the shell. That's why you can't fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart. And that's why, when you really connect with a person's inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant."

- Lisa Unger, "Beautiful Lies"

"sunshine fires"

Sunshine fires her first shot
And I like that feeling a lot
Tends to make me smile

And I pull myself out of bed
Put some clothes up over my head
Then I pull the door

This is how it begins
So simple but it ends so wrong
Cause when you're gone, it's like God put out the sun

My mind wanders
I get nervous 'bout the one I love
Cause when you're gone, it's like God put out the sun

Do you feel the same way too?
I've been thinking a lot about you
And I'd love to know
Slowly morning feels like midnight
I'm paralyzed
And it's dark in my head
Could you send some light my way?

This is how it begins
So simple, you're where I belong
Cause when you're gone, it's like God put out the sun
My mind wanders
I get nervous 'bout the one I love
And when you're gone, it's like God put out the sun

:)

sometimes it's nice to remember that God is so big and i am so small.

He's got it under control :)

10 Things I Hate About You

10 Things I Hate About You is one of my favorite movies of all time. If you ignore some of the unnecessary, dirtyyyy parts, you can really see the parts that speak wisdom to a generation where manners and wooing are hard to find. This quote literally gives me hope when I think about how skeptical I am of men actually having REAL feelings for any girl because it's so true.

Patrick: Cameron, do you like the girl?
Cameron: Yeah.
Patrick: Yeah, and is she worth all this trouble?
...Cameron: Well, I thought she was, but you know, I...
Patrick: Well, she is or she isn't. See first of all, Joey is not half the man you are. Secondly, don't let anyone, ever, make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Go for it.

And that's the truth right there - either she IS or she ISN'T. Don't let anyone make you feel like you don't deserve the person you want. Take a risk and DO SOMETHING.

a new home

My mother says that every time i come home from a new place, I always say "I want to move there". I think my mom is crazy in saying this because I always come home saying the reasons I wouldn't want to move there. Examples: Albuquerque, NM ("there is absolutely nothing to do there, and it isn't even pretty.") and New York, NY ("it's so cool, but it's dirty, too busy, and the weather sucks"). I pretty much never want to move anywhere because California consistently scores a 10 while every where else is like a 6 or 5. This weekend changed that. I have found my new city


Hello, Seattle


in the airport


pikes place market


space needle


top of the space needle


original starbucks


gorgeous


picking the nose of the fremont troll


seattle's street art is incredible.. i mean, just look at us girls! ;)


we even played wii with justin bieber! ;)


this past weekend was one i will remember for a long time. seattle is everything i had dreamed and hoped it would be. the city sprawls out over the hills endlessly, drawing people to its districts and markets. the colors are grey, blue, green, with hints of red and yellows glinting out in eye-catching fashion. the culture is bright and unapologetic, with local art and vibrant stores spilling themselves out all over. the buildings are tall and close together and people walk all over downtown in search of the nearest starbucks (which, by the way, are all over the place). the city has this film quality that looks deep and fulfilling. i can hardly explain it. it just feels right. there is water everywhere, reflecting the grey skies that match the feel of the city perfectly.

i'm not good with words i know, but let me express that i felt at home there in seattle.

we stayed at a friends house while she was on vacation with her kids and the family i nanny for here in san jose. she has offered numerous times to let me move in with her and to consider applying to UW for fall 2011. I'm highly considering it. What a cool opportunity that would be! :)

"When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it" - Edgar Watson Howe